Dec 30, 2013

A dear friend, Claren Torres, left us last August. No one saw it coming. He was so young and talented and charming. We loved him so much and up to now, we are still in disbelief. I miss his presence but I will ultimately miss the stories we could've had if he was still with us.

I would like to hear the story of Claren getting drunk with us at Ad Cong 2014 and how he danced to the newest Britney single. I'm sure that would have been loads of fun. I will miss having stories with Claren in it because I know he would've made our own stories better.

You can say that 2013 was the year I discovered how finite everything was. How death is just around the corner, waiting for any one of my family, friends, or me. Honestly, I sometimes have problem sleeping because I can't stop worrying about the looming end. I know I shouldn't because it's useless to worry about something you can't control. Well that's me, overthinking everything.

I obviously can't do anything about life ending soon for me and for everyone so better make the most out of it. I will just lose sleep and be filled with anxiety. Life is too short and sweet to live in fear.

With that, my 2014 resolution would be to have/make more stories about how life was fantastic. I will end each year with a bucket full of the greatest stories with family, with friends, and even random strangers. Stories filled with crazy dancing and laughter. Stories about old and new friends. Stories about the good and the bad of lucks. Travel will also be a priority. I want to travel and meet people and get to know them and hear their stories.

I want to be able to say that I truly have lived my life (no matter how corny it sounds). I want to appreciate everyone and tell them about it. I want to be able to make a mark in people's lives, even if it's just a very small dent. I will not let a minute go to waste. I will be crazy but I will be happy.

We're all just passing through. Better make it a trip that's one for the books. :)

Of Passing Through
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Of Passing Through

Dec 26, 2013

Last Christmas, I got to spend time with my grandmother who is already at the 6th stage of Alzheimer's. It was very painful to watch her deteriorate from this very wonderful woman who took care of me in lieu of my mother (who was MIA for quite some time due to giving birth to me at a very young age) to this person who I think is my grandmother. This almost unrecognizable, somehow violent woman.

I've always thought of Alzheimer's as a concept so foreign - existing only in the world of Meredith Grey. Little did I know that it has been living so comfortably in our genes, ready to pounce upon triggered. I may have it. My mom may have it. Even my brothers are not safe.

This disease, apparently, is the worst. Aside from having no existing cure, it is also a disease that's infamous for inflicting pain unto the patient's family as the patient will unknowingly hurt his/her loved ones (verbally and physically), and of course, the burden of going through each stage of the disease until the patient is no more. 

I have to admit, I can't stand talking to my grandmother. It may make me a bad person but I really am having a hard time talking to an almost empty shell from someone who was once so warm and loving - showering me with Avon products and Pasaload. Nowadays, the person who used to be my grandmother stares at me with vacant eyes as she tries to recognize who the hell I am.

Now, all I have of her are memories of the woman that she once was. I will always remember her as the woman who used to be my grandma, taking me to salon trips here and there. She was the one who got me my first pedicure and she was the one who taught me how to put on lipstick. She was responsible for my ear piercings because she never got one and somehow wanted to live vicariously through my ears and I. Summer was spent at her house in Nueva Ecija where she bought me my first copy of Precious Hearts Romance - the first novel I read from cover to cover at 6 years old. These memories of her will live with me even when the woman who used to be grandma is far gone. 

Last Christmas, the woman who used to be grandma looked at me and said, "Ang ganda mo naman". I laughed and said "Mana po sa inyo, lola mame!" She looked confused and went back to watching Cinema One while I sit beside her, holding her hand.
The Woman Who Used to be Grandma
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The Woman Who Used to be Grandma

Dec 22, 2013

Also known as stuff I will probably end up buying for myself. My 24th birthday is on January 1 btw and I think I deserve some pretty nifty stuff given the year that was. Also, I'm turning 24! How old of me! Ahhhhhhh!

1. Happy Skin Cosmetics

I am on a make-up ban as I still have a shit ton of make-up I haven't used so maybe this will have to wait but you really need to keep me far, far away from Beauty Bar because Happy Skin is just sooooo irresistible! Plus, did you know that Happy Skin is a local brand? Super awesome.

The best person ever, Maggie, already gave me "My First Time" yesterday as a gift and I could not be any happier. I want to collect them all in every freaking color! It doesn't hurt that they're so affordable too. 499 for a lippie is not bad at all! 

My Christmas/Birthday Wishlist
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My Christmas/Birthday Wishlist

Nov 16, 2013

Today I want to talk about one of my favorite films of 2013 - Liberal Arts. 

Let's Talk About: Liberal Arts
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Let's Talk About: Liberal Arts

Nov 8, 2013

Most of the time, I'm just craving for more time. More time to watch TV, more time to listen to music, more time to just stare blankly at spaces.

Most of the time, I cling to my bed until the very last minute. Getting up is such a feat, I tell ya. I just want to waste away time on my bed and not feel any worry about adulthood-related responsibilities.

Most of the time, I think about why we do the things we do. Why don't we just travel to random places and make new friends (and probably make a lot of amazing stories)?

But then again, if we don't become responsible human beings, we won't have money to do the things we love. Is there a winning formula to get the balance we want in our lives?

We could probably settle for jobs that require no sort of career ladder pressure but then, could we earn money that will fund the kind of lifestyle we want (with music festivals here and there)?

I am just rambling here so don't mind my Friday night cuckoo-ness.

So here's a song. Shout out to 17 year old me who's probably drunk (proud of you girl!) in some alley. Don't worry 17 year old me, 6 years later, you're responsible as shit. Good thing you had fun in college.

On Needing More Time
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On Needing More Time

Nov 3, 2013

I find it super funny that I went from not caring about Ke$ha to LOVING HER.

It all started last month when I found out we were sponsoring her concert. I was like, "Okay Ke$ha, do not care." We had to promote her concert of course so I ended up listening to most of her songs as research. Little did I know that it was the beginning of a beautiful beautiful thing!

I couldn't stop. I downloaded her two albums and her MTV reality show, My Crazy Beautiful Life. I watched all the music videos. I got addicted to Madame Ke$ha!

Come the concert, OMG, it was the best concert ever made. I am not overreacting. Every song had a glitter/confetti combo. Every song had a big production number. And Ke$ha? Baby girl was flawless!

My Ke$ha Obsession
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My Ke$ha Obsession

Oct 19, 2013

Sorry I'm just blogging in short, random bursts (and mostly about mixtapes) for now. Today, I'd like to share with you one of my favorite blogs: Did You Hear The New Mixtape!

The blog comes out with a kick-ass mixtape every month - consisting of around 100 songs or more. The songs can be streamed or downloaded via torrent or zip. The blogger's really awesome (and hardworking) for maintaining a blog such as that.

Visit the blog to download the October mixtape.

Mixtape(s) of the Day: Did YHTN
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Mixtape(s) of the Day: Did YHTN

Oct 15, 2013

Today's mixtape is brought to you by 8tracks user - Such Small Steps.

I recommend you watch the movie as well. Get ready for some serious sadness though. It's a real tearjerker that goes beyond the credits. Celeste & Jesse Forever will make you think twice about everything (but that's for another blog post). 

What's your favorite 8tracks mixtape? :)
Mixtape of the Day - Celeste & Jesse Forever
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Mixtape of the Day - Celeste & Jesse Forever

Sep 15, 2013

The last time I wrote here, I was telling you all about this fantastic opportunity for me in this big Telco company and how I was so giddy and excited for the rest of my life. 3 months later did I only find time to write about it. I actually pushed myself to start writing here because I needed something to keep me sane. This is an attempt of sorts.

On Starting Over (Sort Of)
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On Starting Over (Sort Of)

May 19, 2013

Disclaimer: Blogged right after watching The Carrie Diaries so I'm imagining a voice-over as I type this. 

2 weeks from now, I'll be leaving my most favorite workplace and my most favorite people. My very first (digital) advertising agency, I might add. It's been a wonderful almost 2 years of my life. One that includes me resigning the first time and coming back just after 2 months. This time, I have to say, there's no turning back.

On Complacency
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On Complacency

Apr 22, 2013

I have to stop feeling old. It's getting in the way of my youth. I should be out and about, enjoying a wild night with the best people. I should not be getting enough sleep because of a night's worth of shenanigans. I should have been collecting acquaintances which will be good friends in time. 

But instead I am here. I am here but my mind is already sleeping. I am already imagining myself in bed. I am already downloading the new episode of Cougar Town. I am already ordering food for one. I am already saying no to friends who are in the mood to drink and be merry. I am an old person lacking social skills.

I told myself I'll go out the next weekend when I'm not feeling tired anymore. I always am saying that but it's not working so far. I even convinced my friends that I will go out and drink with them but I never do. I told myself it's time for a stupid decision but it won't ever let me.

I am feeling older with each weekend that I have let myself waste. I have to stop wasting weekends. I have to let myself be young.

Rage, rage against the dying of the light
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Rage, rage against the dying of the light

Apr 15, 2013

Getting to see Stars live will forever be one of the highlights of my adult life. A lot of emotions went through my head that night. 

Stars in Manila
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Stars in Manila

Disclaimer: I'm not really the authority on anything travel-related, but I do know that I am a cheapskate, so doing things on a budget is really how I roll. I hope you find this blog post somehow useful though!

I went to Singapore last January and it was an eventful six days full of the best memories! It was also a feat for my savings but it was very much worth it. Next time, I think that I can budget my money more wisely. I'm really excited to come back, maybe next year for Laneway or whenever the next concert is! Here's a blog post dedicated to going to SG on a budget which I think my future self will need.

Singapore on a Budget
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Singapore on a Budget

Mar 18, 2013

Hello blog! I am alive! Really sorry for being MIA (is anyone still reading this? hahahaha) for life is just too busy!

I promise to blog more this March. Expect at least a couple of reviews on my favorite beauty products and some Instagram photos from my exciting life. Oooh and that long overdue blog post on hostels aka Singapore on a tight budget! Oh and that Boracay on a budget blog post as well. Yep I suck with this blog thing!

Feeling 22
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Feeling 22

Feb 4, 2013

I have never been happier in my entire life. Traveling to another country provides some kind of high that I have never felt before. Add listening to my two favorite bands, Vampire Weekend and Yeah Yeah Yeahs, to  complete the experience. Oh life, you are wonderful.

This is the start of something very beautiful. And yes, I am talking to you budget airlines.

Chinatown is the best!

Singapore Photo Dump
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Singapore Photo Dump